Motivation and parents

Can I say I'm absolutely unmotivated in my studies?! Last year I was such a goody student, full of wishes and hopes. This year, I'm sorta...meh =_= Just meh. I feel like a loser. End of story. So depressing right? I know I have to try harder, but for what purpose? A better future? Well goddamn it, what type of future do I want?

I feel like  this:

Yah, yah, I know typical teenage angst. But of course I do have something to rant about:
My parents and their views on my friends. Apparently they won't let me associate with anyone who doesn't have good grades. OMG. WTF. Does not getting good grades mean you fail at like? That you're a douchebag that deserves no friends?? I can't believe them.

Let's call my friend Miss S
She has her faults: bitterly sarcastic, unafraid to be mean to people she doesn't like, very white and black, and loud. By loud, I mean LOUD. LOUD.

I don't mind at all, of course she gets on my nerves sometimes, but who doesn't have faults? And now parents think she's a good-for-nothing 'cause she got a C. I'd like them to get a reality check. Or maybe I secretly want to scream go to hell at the top and my lungs and stab them with my secret devil prongs...

On to slightly less angsty topics: The preview of GazettE "Pledge" has come out
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check it out !

And also, what do you guys think of Yumehito being the new lead singer of AYABIE?  His voice is nice, but not very unique like Aoi's was. I think they'll do quite well, so I'm cheering for them!

Da la la la~

So today,
got chewed out by my lovely mother. I believe it was due to my insolence for yelling at her. I admit, it was my fault. But I swear, she doesn't have to take one of those coat hangers and beat me with it. Dammit, my back still hurts. Is this called child abuse? Ah well, it doesn't matter to me either way, mother is mother.

I've been wondering, what is wrong with todays teenagers? I just had a ridiculous discussion with one. She was  nice and all (underneath that grimy exterior), but I simply didn't find the spark of life that I wanted to see.
Well in general, teenagers neither have motivation nor ambition. So my expectations were a bit high.
Let me list some of my pet peeves:

Eating Habits

"Excuse me, but you do realize you just ate 5 mcdoubles and 1 liter coke?"

Teenagers these adays are voracious, they eat and eat and eat. And what they eat is just absolute trash. Trash, in the sense that almost everything is almost artificial. I watched a video about High Fructose Corn Syrup. Yup. That made me become healthier. I mean it's not only what they eat, it's how they eat.
Their grubby greasy hands desperately seeking for another morsel, and their gaping jaws gobble and salivate over the entire tray. Oops, I might be exaggerating, but anyways, that's the gist of it.

Music


=_= Specifically U.S. music. I find mainstream music repetitive and very very boring. For instance, G6 (some popular song on the radio) repeats the main melody/beat over and over again. It sounds like a broken record, squealing and squeaking. Utterly unappealing. I don't want to pay to have to listen to icky monotone music, I can just press my doorbell over and over again and it'd make the same sounds. And again, the fuckin' content makes me want to raise my eyebrows and shoot them without a change in facial expression. Basically a song is now defined as (in my head): I want to fuck you because you're so sexy, Sweet gushy silly romance and giggly unicorns, I'm so cool and you're so not cool, DRUGS SEX PEACE LOVE.
Really, really now. Half of the time I wince because the song is like a highly uncouth bragging exercise that sounds like a donkey.
I'll admit, not all rap is bad, and I don't mind vulgarness. But I don't want every single song to be about a club and sex, or something silly and romantic.


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Yes I know everybody's opinion is different, but please, you have to agree with me on some points~

New Blog

Meh, can I say that I am absolutely bored and trying to waste time by creating a blog?
Yup, yup.
I just find that ranting about my personal life fun, no? Just as the title says, these Mindless Chapters will be about what I find interesting, Who knows, here might be one or two reviews

So today, a sunday, pretty productive. Volunteered at the art museum, got chewed out by my manager for socializing, made new friends.
I don't really want to name people on here, but there was a black girl that I socialized with. I say socialize, 'cuz I don't know if talking for 3 hours makes two people friends? She's pretty cool, but I suppose some  problems. What can I say? I think anybody who's living has a few quirks up their sleeves. I know I do.

Anyways, she went to a community college and has been repeatedly hospitalized for stress related migraines and the like. Apparently it's because she's worrying about what she wants to do in the future (I believe she is a sophomore in college). She says she wants to take it easy and get an easy job. I do think she's the type that can't handle stress very well. Hmm, she sort of reminds me of a skittish mouse, eyes wide and darting to and fro, never really looking at me. I would like to talk to her some more.
Apparently,  I don't know how this came to be, but we've scheduled a sushi buffet outing in 3 weeks.
I hope it doesn't turn out like one of those movies where I'm going to be murdered by an unknown psychopath. Ah well, we'll see what happens.

Another person, lets call her Miss Asian, because she is a perfect example of that race. Rather quiet. That's all I can say. But perhaps we established a bond? We hit it off pretty easily. Well, I think it's easier to say hi to a person who you don't really know than to say hi to someone who really matters.

And to further rant, I'm listening to Forever Slave - the letter. They're a gothic band, pretty good, dare I say. I don't consider myself goth, or anything really. What really bugs me is people saying they're goth because they're wearing black or because they listen to goth music. To me, real goth people don't say they're goth, because they know they're goth. They don't need anybody else to vertify they're identity. But lo' and behold, those people are few. After all, our society is just one hellish paradise.
Eh...I have to say, I didn't really listen to goth music until I stumbled across Necrosephelia's blog. I think I shall go follow her now. Bye bye~